"Gansey, this isn't your fault at all." It's Ronan's, she wanted to add. She wonders how much they were all lied to by Ronan Lynch, someone who purported himself above lying. Lies, all of it. "Don't apologize. This is just... hard." Not even two hours ago, they were planning a date. Since then, Gansey died and lives again, and he has no memory of a single thing that happened between the two of them, let alone anything else.
It's hard for Blue to sit there and not feel like she's completely in the wrong too, when it comes to Gansey. She watches his mouth, knowing what it's like to kiss him, and wishing she could then, but she can't. Too much risk, if all of this was for nothing.
Adam hit Gansey with a car, and now he's sitting here and talking to them. She doesn't blame Adam for wanting to run. "Adam, stay." She looks away from Gansey's mouth then, turning her eyes to level at Adam's shoulder. Some part of her blames him, and doesn't all at once. Everything is wrong and painful, but the only two people she doesn't hate in all this were there in the room, and them leaving, going away... It would make her break again.
She doesn't want to break again. And she can talk to Gansey later, when everything calms down. It would be a long, strange conversation.
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Date: 2015-03-23 12:21 am (UTC)It's hard for Blue to sit there and not feel like she's completely in the wrong too, when it comes to Gansey. She watches his mouth, knowing what it's like to kiss him, and wishing she could then, but she can't. Too much risk, if all of this was for nothing.
Adam hit Gansey with a car, and now he's sitting here and talking to them. She doesn't blame Adam for wanting to run. "Adam, stay." She looks away from Gansey's mouth then, turning her eyes to level at Adam's shoulder. Some part of her blames him, and doesn't all at once. Everything is wrong and painful, but the only two people she doesn't hate in all this were there in the room, and them leaving, going away... It would make her break again.
She doesn't want to break again. And she can talk to Gansey later, when everything calms down. It would be a long, strange conversation.