Blue stays in the hallway, finding a dark corner to stand in while Gansey goes to talk to Ronan. She feels massive waves of guilt for not knowing, something that hadn't even occurred to her until Gansey said it. She kissed him, but someone else. She nearly spilled her feelings for him, but to someone else. She's mourning someone else, but her heart tells her it was him.
It's all confused and painful and she knows she can't stay at Monmouth. She has to go home. She has to get as far away from this as she can, to let it all settle and figure out where her head is at. She can walk home. Someone will be there to let her in. She can get her things later.
For now, she stands hidden away. She betrayed Gansey, because of things out of her control, but that doesn't make her feel any less horrible for it. And it just makes her anger surge even greater.
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Date: 2015-03-23 10:09 pm (UTC)It's all confused and painful and she knows she can't stay at Monmouth. She has to go home. She has to get as far away from this as she can, to let it all settle and figure out where her head is at. She can walk home. Someone will be there to let her in. She can get her things later.
For now, she stands hidden away. She betrayed Gansey, because of things out of her control, but that doesn't make her feel any less horrible for it. And it just makes her anger surge even greater.