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[safe_as_life]

The rain starts early in the day, pouring down on Henrietta in sheets. It's the kind of rain that tends to keep people inside, but mostly they're just glad it isn't snow anymore. Spring is approaching quickly and this kind of rainfall is definitely the first sign of it. Gansey doesn't mind that it rains all day long, from first period to last.

It distracts him some, makes him feel nostalgic for things he can't quite put his finger on, and then worried for those same reasons. Then again, he's been a lot more distracted at school lately, not able to concentrate or pick up on his studies as much as usual. He wonders if it has to do with his anticipation to see Blue, because even now, that's all he's thinking about. Rain, the Camaro, Blue Sargent. Somewhere in the back of his head he's constantly thinking about Ronan too, but he supposes that's what best friends do.

By the time the last bell rings though, it's all about Blue. He certainly isn't going to let the rain stop him. Dinner, a movie, possibly sleeping over tonight. Yes, he definitely wants to ask her to sleep over tonight. He grabs his books and neatly puts them away, then goes to meet up with Ronan, Adam and Kavinsky by the front entrance. He has a good feeling about tonight.

Gansey practically races out of his last class, waving when he sees his friends, smiling as he hoists his bag over his shoulder. "Can you believe this rain? All day. Roads must be slippery."

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[safe_as_life]

"Isn't it? It's just as much my fault as anyone else's." But he doesn't know how much he wants to get into that right now. Blue and Adam have had enough. He knows he can't put more on them right now. He wants to know everything, but he doesn't think he can or should drag it out of either of them.

He's glad Adam is staying though. He can't handle another person running away from him now, when he's been out of it all for days. "How many days has it been?" He can't help but ask, because as much as he wants to tiptoe around, he needs answers, too.

Gansey checks his phone as well, furrowing his eyebrows. "How did you all get here?"

[liberty_bodice]

"No. It's not your fault at all." Any conversations Ronan and Gansey had had were mysteries to Blue. She's in the dark about more than revealed to her already, and will defend her misdirection to the end right now. She wants to blame Ronan, but more, she doesn't want to be assigning blame about anything. Blue would rather focus on Gansey being alive.

"About a week. Kavinsky came and picked us all up after... everything and we went to Cabeswater. And that's where we remembered. Well. They remembered and told me what... happened." She can't look at him then. She lets his hand go and picks at her broken nail polish. "And then we came here to get you."

Blue glances briefly at Adam, then back to her fingernails. Someone was picking them up. That meant they'd head back to Monmouth. "I think my bag is still in the Pig. I'll have to get it before I go home."

[leylined]

Adam nods along to Blue's words, confirming everything she says. He feels trapped, but he stays where he is, knowing that him running off would only cause the others to freak out in turn. And maybe that's enough to keep him calm and out of the worst of everything for now. He keeps trying to clear his mind, but it doesn't work.

He looks up at Blue at that request. "Can it wait?" He doesn't want to see any of it, not his car, not the Pig, not even the site.

[safe_as_life]

"A week.... good god. A whole week? I was just..." He looks toward where Noah was standing, but he isn't there anymore. At least he was here with him the whole time. He remembers what Noah said about the favor. It might have been better than this. "Kavinsky? Right, of course. So you all thought I was..." He doesn't even want to say it. Eggshells. So many eggshells.

"Where's the Pig?" He asks, before he can stop himself, as if a car should even matter right then, but it does, because everything feels so far removed from him. It feels like this is suddenly not even his life anymore.

[liberty_bodice]

"Had I known..." She picks her nail polish off her nail, one thumb against the other. Had she known, she would've ruined all Ronan's plans and woken Gansey up, had nothing to do with the dream version of him, wouldn't have kissed him. And then this Gansey would still have a death sentence. Was her vision from the tree null and void now? She has to go back and see. Not now, though.

Now it's figuring everything else out. "On the road between Fox Way and Monmouth, last we saw it. You'd... He'd picked me up and we were headed back so you... he could change." She trails off. It's all too complicated. It was Gansey, but this is Gansey and Blue feels like she betrayed him in the worst possible way. Adam's question gets a shrug of her shoulders. "If I don't go home, yeah. My keys and stuff are in there, but... I can sleep on the couch at Monmouth."

[safe_as_life]

"Neither of you noticed that it wasn't me?" The last he remembers, Adam was away. Ronan and Kavinsky had done this all under everyone's nose. Gansey knew it was coming though. He knew, when Ronan has mentioned it. He knew that Adam was upset about what they were doing, too.

He wants to ask about the car accident, but he sees the look on Adam's face and he can't. And then Blue starts going on about this other version of him, and how he picked Blue up, and he wonders what else might have happened in that week. "Sleep wherever you're most comfortable. We'll get you there. I have to speak to Ronan before we leave, though. He ran out of here before I had a chance to talk to him."

[liberty_bodice]

Blue's guilt spikes when Gansey questioned if she knew it was him. "It was you. Something screwed up my memory, or I would've known." The minute Gansey tried to kiss her without a care in the world, Blue would've stopped him, if she'd had her head about her. She'd have known something was wrong. And Gansey would still have a death sentence.

It was hard to be happy about that part of it. "I should've known." She murmurs it quickly and quietly, and then gets up off the bed. "Go talk to Ronan, then. Car'll be here soon and I'm sure that's not going to be a quick conversation." Blue reaches over and touches his shoulder, something in her checking that he's really there, and then she steps out of the room in the hallway as tears decide to start again.

She's very much done crying in front of them.

[leylined]

"I...wasn't there for the switch. And we didn't remember anything until we went back to Cabeswater." Why they were there hangs heavily in the air. He drops his gaze from Blue. "None of the fights. None of the visions, or plans. We. There was nothing. We were all happy." And he feels awful for saying it, because things had been so tense for so long. Gansey deserved to be a part of all of that, to forget that he was doomed and that Blue's true love was doomed, and that his only care was to find Glendower.

He watches her go, and he pats Gansey's leg lightly. "She'll be fine. It was just...a rough day for all of us."

[safe_as_life]

He feels bad as soon as the words are out of his mouth. As soon as he sees the guilty look on Blue's face. How could they have known? Ronan's dream things are perfect. There's no way they could have known and yet a small part of him is angry that they didn't, and then Gansey feels bad about that, too.

"They used magic. They messed with everyone's memories. They used something on me, too." Tell them, he thinks. Tell them that you told Ronan is was okay. He can't bring himself to say the words. He has to talk to Ronan first. "Jane..." he starts, then sighs and nods, watching her walk out of the room. He wants to follow and comfort her, but he's not even sure if that's what she wants.

Then he looks to Adam. "Everyone was happy." Without him. Because it was a different version of him there. One with no worries, no insecurities, no prophecies or looming deaths. But he died anyway and then.... then he wonders... did Blue kiss him? His heart nearly stops. "Adam... stay with her, please? I'll be right back. I don't want to leave things like this with Ronan."

He wants to reach over and hug Adam tightly, but he remembers the flinching from before, so all he does is take the hand that pats his leg and squeezes, then pulls back and gets up slowly, heading out to find Ronan.

[liberty_bodice]

Blue stays in the hallway, finding a dark corner to stand in while Gansey goes to talk to Ronan. She feels massive waves of guilt for not knowing, something that hadn't even occurred to her until Gansey said it. She kissed him, but someone else. She nearly spilled her feelings for him, but to someone else. She's mourning someone else, but her heart tells her it was him.

It's all confused and painful and she knows she can't stay at Monmouth. She has to go home. She has to get as far away from this as she can, to let it all settle and figure out where her head is at. She can walk home. Someone will be there to let her in. She can get her things later.

For now, she stands hidden away. She betrayed Gansey, because of things out of her control, but that doesn't make her feel any less horrible for it. And it just makes her anger surge even greater.