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The rain starts early in the day, pouring down on Henrietta in sheets. It's the kind of rain that tends to keep people inside, but mostly they're just glad it isn't snow anymore. Spring is approaching quickly and this kind of rainfall is definitely the first sign of it. Gansey doesn't mind that it rains all day long, from first period to last.

It distracts him some, makes him feel nostalgic for things he can't quite put his finger on, and then worried for those same reasons. Then again, he's been a lot more distracted at school lately, not able to concentrate or pick up on his studies as much as usual. He wonders if it has to do with his anticipation to see Blue, because even now, that's all he's thinking about. Rain, the Camaro, Blue Sargent. Somewhere in the back of his head he's constantly thinking about Ronan too, but he supposes that's what best friends do.

By the time the last bell rings though, it's all about Blue. He certainly isn't going to let the rain stop him. Dinner, a movie, possibly sleeping over tonight. Yes, he definitely wants to ask her to sleep over tonight. He grabs his books and neatly puts them away, then goes to meet up with Ronan, Adam and Kavinsky by the front entrance. He has a good feeling about tonight.

Gansey practically races out of his last class, waving when he sees his friends, smiling as he hoists his bag over his shoulder. "Can you believe this rain? All day. Roads must be slippery."

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liberty_bodice

Blue stays entirely silent on the ride over. She's getting angrier and angrier, and it's causing everything else to be far too heightened. Everything cuts like knives, and yet again she gets no say in how anything is going to happen, even though it affects her directly. She feels very much like she is done with these boys when this is over and done with. The two in the front seat, at the very least.

They arrive at the Barns, and Blue's out of the car, letting go of Adam. The minute she realizes Kavinsky is going to stand in her way, she glares at him. She can't even absolve the vision of Gansey dead in her head because Ronan wants to wake him up. Her jaws clench so hard her teeth ache. She just wants to break things, and Blue doesn't break things.

"Get me when he's awake." She can't stand to be in the same room as Kavinsky, even less so Ronan. She hates them, in that moment. She storms out of Ronan's house and heads for the nearest barn, where a herd of sleeping cattle were. The skies looked threatening, and matched Blue's mood to a T. She's angry.

The minute she's alone in the barn, though, she loses it. She leans into a wall, near one of the cows that was just there, breathing slowly, warm and comfortable and dry, a dream thing as much as that Gansey was. But she kissed him. He knew her and she loved him and he's gone now, and Blue curls into a ball and sobs alone. She can't break down like this in front of them, not now. They were bastards and not to be trusted again. Out on a limb, and she thought this was all fated and she was meant to have them in her life, but this was unforgivable.

She leans her side into the wall of the barn, tucking in against the cow, and she lets herself feel every ounce of it. Gansey would be awake soon. She needed to not do this in front of him, but her heart shatters into pieces. She folds entirely in on herself and lets it all hit her as hard as it's going to, and it's agony, and she has to do it alone. Then she has to be okay with it. Because the Gansey in there is still alive.

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leylined

That last turn has Adam go over the edge once more, and when the Evo slides to a halt, he's out of the car and emptying what's left of his stomach onto the gravel road of the Barns. Any help that may have been offered is preemptively waved away by Adam, letting his head and stomach settle before he makes his own way into the main house. He doesn't even have time to argue with Kavinsky or Ronan, instead letting himself fall gracelessly into one of the many chairs in the room.

He shakes his head at Kavinsky's offer profusely. "I'm. I'm not drinking. Not tonight." Not ever again. "Water."

From:

fucking_kavinsky

Kavinsky can feel the hate radiating off Blue and he kinda wishes he never got better at this feelings thing. What's it good for? This crap? He's glad when she leaves. None of that is helpful right now.

So he's left with Adam, eying him carefully as he pours himself a drink. He wasn't there when it happened and while he wished before that he was, he's kinda glad now that he wasn't. It's selfish of him and he knows it. After he knocks a drink back, then pours another glass and knocks that back too, he feels a little less selfish. If he keeps drinking, maybe he wont feel anything at all.

But he stops himself, because Adam looks a mess and at least Kavinsky can make himself useful to him by grabbing some water, handing it over. "Here. You'll feel better when Dick wakes up."

From:

the_greywaren

"Thank Christ." He mutters when he sees Noah. Though now he worries if everyone will start treating him like shit when they find out he knew about the plan and helped as well. "Physically everyone is okay. It's...done." Ronan didn't want to tell Noah everything that happened. Mostly because he was worried that he might turn on him too.

Taking the dreamt up medication from K he stares at it. Even if he saved his life and Gansey never talked to him again, that would be fine. He could live with that. As long as he never had to feel what he felt earlier today. He could live with anything else, he told himself before he administered the medication to his sleeping friend. After the drugs were in his system, Ronan sat on the edge of the bed close to Gansey waiting for him to open his eyes.

From:

safe_as_life

Gansey feels groggy when he wakes, everything around him seeming stranger than he remembers it. His eyes stay closed for a long moment, his limbs feeling heavy, his brain trying to get everything to move. When he does open them, he has no idea where he is and he wonders just what in the hell happened to him. Maybe somehow he sustained a blow to his head. He's trying to remember.

Then he sees Ronan and he immediately recognizes everything else. They're at the Barns. "Ronan?" He says, his voice weak and scratchy. "What... are we doing here? What happened?"

From:

the_greywaren

Ronan finally takes a real, deep breath and his whole body floods with relief as Gansey opens his eyes. They didn't kill him. He grabbed one of his hands and held it tight. "I'm going to tell you everything. I just need you to listen. Okay?"

It took him a minute to get his thoughts together. He looked expectantly at Noah as if he could guide him and tell him how to start this story. There was nothing anyone could do to make this easier for him. Because he had lied. He had been deceptive and manipulative. Ronan knew all of the sins he had committed against his friends. Knew how horrible and awful it was for them. And he would do it all again.

He laughed nervously and pinched the bridge of his nose. "Fuck. Shit...I'm fucking scared." That was a hell of a confession to make, it was the truth though. Ronan had no idea how Gansey would take the news.

"Okay.." He let out a shaky breath. "We talked about this, about me doing something to get your fucking name off that list. To stop whatever prophecy keeps Blue from kissing you." Which was why he had to make sure she had kissed him. He couldn't save his life just to have her kiss him and undo everything. "Well, I did it. Today."

Shit. He wished he was a lot less sober for this. "Kavinksy and Persephone helped me. And before you get pissed or whatever with them for it, please remember they helped because of me. Because I asked them to. I needed them and they let me use them for this. It's on me. All of it." He paused. Not for long though. If he didn't get this all out right now he wasn't sure if he could. "K and I brought you out here. We drugged you and you've been sleeping here for a few days now. Persephone helped with the magic, something to make everyone forget everything to do with you dying or if they should kiss you or not. I dreamt another you and we took him back to Monmouth. Left you here with Noah." Ronan hoped Gansey would understand that the help from Persephone had come to them because she believed his plan would work. She helped them not because Ronan manipulated her but because she saw the merit in what they were doing.

""There was a hell of a storm today. He was taking Blue out on a date and the Pig broke down. He called Parrish for help to get it started. We drove out....Adam was driving. There was so much fucking water on the road..." Ronan stared down at his hands, nervously picking at the leather bracelets wrapped around his wrists. "The car hit standing water and slid out of control. He got hit. It killed him. The car. We all decided that maybe if we took the body to Cabeswater there would be some way to bring him back. Only once we crossed into the forest the spell was broken and everyone remembered what they were made to forget." For now the clusterfuck of emotions, blame and anger would be left out of this story. "I buried the body and we headed straight here to wake you up. Gansey, I didn't plan that part. How he would die. I never meant for Adam to have anything to do with it. I never would have done that to him on purpose. It was just a fucking accident."

He figured Gansey might have questions so he finally shut up and waited.

From:

safe_as_life

Gansey tries to sit up, because he can tell something is wrong, but everything still feels too heavy, so he just closes his eyes for a moment and nods. "Okay." Ronan's hand is in his and that can't mean good things, but he wants to know what's going on. He can collect himself while Ronan talks.

When Ronan says he's scared, that's when Gansey forces his eyes open again, eyebrows furrowing. It really is a hell of a confession to make, considering it's Ronan. And then he gets it. Ronan went through with the plan. Whatever the plan was, it happened. This gets him sitting up.

Things start filtering back into his head. Kavinsky and Ronan driving out here, all of them getting high, then things start getting very fuzzy. Even he knows pot doesn't knock a person out like that. They drugged him. "A few days?!" He looks around and Noah steps closer, as if he wants to keep him here a little longer and get him to listen to the rest of what Ronan has to say. Kavinsky, Persephone of all people.... he knows they had to be something big.

The more Ronan tells him, the more he feels like this is a dream. This isn't really what happened. It can't be. Dream versions of him, a storm, car crashes. His face is pale, and he suddenly can't feel his hands. He doesn't know what to do with himself. How could all of this have happened while he was laying here in this bed, sleeping?

"Oh my god." It comes out as barely a whisper, his brain still trying to wrap itself around all of this. He can feel his heart thudding in his chest. "How could you do this?" He shakes his head. "Where are they? Where is Adam and Blue?"

Edited Date: 2015-03-22 07:15 am (UTC)

From:

the_greywaren

How could you do this? That's all Ronan needs to hear. It's all he can take hearing. Letting Gansey's hand go he gets up and heads for the door. "I'll send them in."

At the door he pauses, strangling the handle in his sweaty palm. His heart hurts every time it beats. This is the price you have to pay, he reminds himself. "You told me to do whatever it took to save your life. I did."

Opening the door he disappears down the hall. Following the sound of voices he finds K and Adam in the kitchen. "He's awake." That's all he has the heart to say. Ronan only paused long enough to say those two words before continuing on out of the house.

He doesn't look for Blue. Ronan starts walking through the fields of tall grass, toward the rolling hills in the distance, hell bent on getting as far away from everyone and everything as he can.

From:

safe_as_life

He isn't sure how he's supposed to react to any of this. He's angry, he's confused, he's worried... he can't believe it. Then again, in a world full of magic and dreamers, prophesies and ley lines, of course it's possible. Dream up a different version, kill them to save him. But nothing is that simple. How could they have thought it would be?

It takes a moment for Gansey to realize that Ronan is up and heading to the door, and Noah is standing there looking very scared. "Ronan," he says in a tone that urges him to stop, because he needs to think, and he still doesn't understand what happened. He knows he should, but his brain doesn't want to accept it. "Ronan, wait!" He gets up, but then he's crashing down to his knees, and Noah is there next to him in an instant, getting him up and back in bed.

"He just wants to you live. He doesn't want you to die. You could have given him the favor," Noah tells him, but Gansey is too dizzy to think about that right now.

From:

liberty_bodice

She's quieted down with the crying by the time Adam's voice carries into the barn. She's simply sitting there, stroking the backs of her fingers against the big brown beast she was snuggled up to, feeling it shift her legs as it breathed. It was calming, at the very least. Blue remains silent, though. She isn't sure she wants to talk to Adam, even. If someone in her family was involved, the likely culprit was Orla. Second likely was Persephone, because Calla's mouth was far too huge to keep something like that a secret.

If it was Persephone, she doubted Adam was completely without blame. Blue's also having a hard time not lashing out at every single person involved.

But he was retrieving her to see Gansey. That means he's awake, and Blue's on her feet. She balks at the door for a brief moment, looking at Adam, working on some set of words that would give meaning to the moment beyond pulling her back into the group, and then she's running toward the house. She can hear Kavinsky yelling after Ronan somewhere in the distance, and that's some relief.

Blue tears through the house, and stops when she sees Gansey, Noah at his side. Every effort made to keep her shit together fails right them, and it takes her a moment before she's breathing again, and she goes and sits at his other side. She manages a half smile. "You okay?"

From:

safe_as_life

Gansey keeps his eyes closed, trying to figure out what to do. He's dead. There's a dream version of him dead and buried somewhere and they killed him. How they even know if that'll save him is beyond him. He certainly feels different, but not in a good way.

He's trying to pull himself together enough to get up and go find Blue and Adam, but then there she is, rushing in through the door and he's never been so relieved. She's the most beautiful thing he's ever seen. She seems so composed and together, small smile on her face, managing to sit down at his side before he can even jump up to greet her. He hugs her, holds her close, and he wants to apologize profusely to her. "I'm okay. Are you okay?" He's not okay. He doesn't think he is. He's not sure what he is right now. But he's alive.

From:

liberty_bodice

Blue wraps around Gansey tightly, and it's him. He doesn't quite smell like himself, he smells like this place, but he's Gansey and she buries her face against his shoulder. She's glad she scurried in, sat before he could stand. He's been here for a few days. Had to be hell on him, even if he was asleep.

His question makes her choke a little, and she can't lie. She's refusing, absolutely, to lie about any of this anymore. "No." She pulls back from the hug and looks at him, eyes relieved and broken at the same time. Her hand smooths over his cheek, and she shrugs her shoulders. "I think I will be, though." She can be. He's there and hanging onto her and maybe it did work. Maybe Gansey's not going to die now.

She takes a breath and bites hard at her bottom lip. "It's been a crappy day." There's a hint of a sad laugh as she says it, because it's the understatements of all understatements. "Adam..." She looks back toward the door, and Adam's not behind her. "Adam's here too. Adam?" She raises her voice a little. Then she turns back to Gansey, kisses his cheek, and hugs him again. "Not sure I've ever been this glad to see you."

From:

leylined

Adam lingers outside of the room, letting Gansey and Blue have their time alone and letting himself prepare to see him. He's still terrified, half-convinced they're all playing him for fools and that what's in there is an empty bed, or worse, the body of his friend laid out so that he's forced to acknowledge his crime more than he has. But he hears Gansey's voice, and then Blue calling him in, and he can't just stay here. Even if this is the last time they ever lay eyes on each other, even if Gansey comes to hate him, he needs to see him now.

He heads into the room with wary eyes, and when they're cast on his friend, his tension breaks. He doesn't care if Blue is there to see, he runs across the room and practically tackles Gansey in his bed, his hug fierce and full of everything that he can't say aloud, reaching around to hug Blue as well, savoring their warmth, their breath, their heartbeats. "You're alive." His voice is thick as he burrows his face into Gansey's neck. "You're alive."

Edited Date: 2015-03-22 09:15 am (UTC)

From:

safe_as_life

He can't even imagine what they've been through the past couple days. Few days? He's not even sure what Ronan told him. It's all a jumble in his head now. He remembers something about a spell. Cabeswater. He remembers telling Ronan that he trusted him.

"I'm so sorry," he says quietly, watching her face. She looks exhausted, eyes red, hair disheveled. He wishes he could take her pain away somehow. "I don't even know what to say. I can't believe...." There was another version of him running around. He can't believe it. "I'm glad to see you too." But it doesn't hurt the way it's hurting her, because all he did was sleep.

When Adam comes in the room, Gansey looks up and over at him, and he can see that same kind of pain in his eyes too. Pain and turmoil that eases just the slightest when he looks at Gansey. The massive hug is unexpected, but not unwanted and he throws his arms around Adam as well, hugging him back, then hugging both of them. It's a reunion, but he missed the part where he was gone, and he feels oddly out of place. "I'm alive. I promise you, I'm alive. "

Richard Campbell Gansey III

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