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The rain starts early in the day, pouring down on Henrietta in sheets. It's the kind of rain that tends to keep people inside, but mostly they're just glad it isn't snow anymore. Spring is approaching quickly and this kind of rainfall is definitely the first sign of it. Gansey doesn't mind that it rains all day long, from first period to last.

It distracts him some, makes him feel nostalgic for things he can't quite put his finger on, and then worried for those same reasons. Then again, he's been a lot more distracted at school lately, not able to concentrate or pick up on his studies as much as usual. He wonders if it has to do with his anticipation to see Blue, because even now, that's all he's thinking about. Rain, the Camaro, Blue Sargent. Somewhere in the back of his head he's constantly thinking about Ronan too, but he supposes that's what best friends do.

By the time the last bell rings though, it's all about Blue. He certainly isn't going to let the rain stop him. Dinner, a movie, possibly sleeping over tonight. Yes, he definitely wants to ask her to sleep over tonight. He grabs his books and neatly puts them away, then goes to meet up with Ronan, Adam and Kavinsky by the front entrance. He has a good feeling about tonight.

Gansey practically races out of his last class, waving when he sees his friends, smiling as he hoists his bag over his shoulder. "Can you believe this rain? All day. Roads must be slippery."

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From:

liberty_bodice

They leave Cabeswater, and Blue ignores everything else that's going on. She wants to yell and accuse and be angry about all of it, and she simmers there in her seat in the back. Kavinsky's getting high, music that makes her want to rip her ears off pulsing through the car, trapped there with two people she wanted to be as far removed from as was physically possible, anger palpable from Adam too.

She hates this. She wishes she'd skipped St. Mark's last year, and never got involved with any of them. Not really, because just the idea of that makes her heart ache worse, but Blue's anger knows no real bounds at the moment. She's furious and worried.

But Blue does feel done with Joseph Kavinsky and Ronan Lynch. The only person she trusts in that car right now is Adam, to whom she reaches over. It's an old movement, finding his hand with hers, and she doesn't care if he's opposed, she's taking his damned hand, because she needs someone that she doesn't hate or she will start screaming and things will end with her trying to strange Ronan with the laces of her boots while kicking Kavinsky in the face.

From:

leylined

Adam's in his own world again. It's not as bad as it was, but there's still rain. It's too much noise and they're moving much too fast. Adam wants to object, but inside he knows he'd only be ignored at this point. He doubts he can find his own voice in this moment as it is. One hand is gripped much too tight on the door and the other is dug into the seat. He can barely breathe. He can't open his eyes, he's- everything's a sickly shade of red, slowly washed away into a pink mess.

Before he's lost in the rabbit hole, though, something grabs for his hand and he jumps, before recognizing the feeling of it, and memories change to something simpler, of two awkward teenagers trying to find how they could fit. He latches onto it in favor of what's going on around him now, his breathing calming down down. He still doesn't open his eyes because he doesn't know how he'll react if he sees as well as feels, so he just holds onto Blue's hand and tries to put everything out of his mind.

From:

the_greywaren

Had Ronan bothered to look in his rear view mirror he might have noticed Adam's face and the way he pinched his eyes shut. He hadn't, with good reason. Ronan didn't want to look. The road stretched out ahead of him and that was all he had the heart to pay attention to right then.

Shifting into the highest gear they pick up speed. He glances at K. The more he thought about it the more he realized that it might be better if Gansey was already awake when they got there.

"Call Noah at the house. Number is under Barns in my phone." A dream phone that wouldn't be put asunder by the rain. "Tell him to inject the shit to wake him up into his IV. We should be there by the time he's up."

From:

fucking_kavinsky

Kavinsky does what he needs to do, then puts it all away and rests his head back, closing his eyes. He misses his sunglasses and he figures he probably left them at Swan's house. At least he's starting to feel a little less agitated now, and a little more balanced.

He looks over at Ronan when he tells him to call the house, frowning just slightly. "He's gonna freak." He knows he would, if he were in that position. "Maybe we should all be there when that shit goes down." Especially if something goes wrong with the drug he dreamt up and he needs to dream another one. "I think we should be the ones who give it to him." Noah doesn't seem like he'd know what to do anyway.

From:

liberty_bodice

Blue doesn't even look over at Adam, just takes his hand and hangs onto it. It's hard to not to let out snide comments in regard to the two of them waking Gansey up. How it wouldn't be necessary, all manner of other things that weren't at all helpful to the situation. There was no sensibility in Blue at that moment. She's hurt and angry and in mourning and there was no snapping out of it because it was some dream version of Gansey.

"I want to be there when he wakes up." It's all she's contributing. She wants to be there and have that moment she wished for so hard in the back of the Bentley. Somehow try to coalesce the two things into one, and make some effort at breaking off this horrible mourning she's in and knows she's not coming out of any time soon. Blue squeezes Adam's hand again, tightening her fingers around his. This was going to be a hell of a day.

From:

leylined

Adam squeezes back, trying to get his mind in the right place, but it's slow going. It takes all of him not to start freaking out again, but when the others start talking, he manages to talk. "We need to be there," he agrees with the other two. His voice is rough and quiet, barely audible over the music. "We need to explain what was going on to him as soon as we can. He deserves that." He inhales and speaks louder. "And Ronan, for god's sake, slow down."

From:

the_greywaren

Ronan pulls his bottom lip through his teeth over and over until the skin feels raw. His hands grip the wheel so tight his fingers ache. He nods several times in agreement with K. "Yeah, you're right, we should do it."

More importantly Ronan needed to do it. He needed to wake Gansey up and explain to him what he had done. Shaking his head he let out a breath. "We don't need to explain shit. I do. All you know is what happened today. He deserves to know and he's going to hear the truth from me. I'm waking him up." His eyes find K's. "I need to tell him. Me. I did this."

Gansey had told Ronan to do whatever he had to do, but Ronan had never told him what he was going to do. The only one he told the full plan to was K. He needed to talk to Gansey alone and explain himself without anyone else interjecting.

Ronan doesn't slow down. The roads are wet but they aren't dangerous. He's done listening to Adam tell him what he needs to do. The only time the car slows down is when he slides around the turn and pulls onto the gravel driveway that leads to the main house of the Barns. The gate is opened and Ronan pulls the car up to the house.

"Wait in the living room."

He doesn't even close the car door after he gets out. Throwing open the front door he storms inside calling out for Noah.

"Noah!" Right then he really needed him. Just to have a friend on his side. Noah knew the truth, he didn't like it, but he had been there and helped Ronan when he needed it. "Noah!" Ronan pushed open the door of his old bedroom where Gansey was left fast asleep. His heart surged seeing him laying there right where they had left him. "It's time to wake him up."

From:

fucking_kavinsky

Kavinsky nods, glad Ronan agrees, because this really doesn't need to get any worse than it already is. He's also glad Ronan makes it clear that he'll be the one telling them. Gansey doesn't need this entire crowd bustling in on him. "You didn't do this alone, Ronan. I was there too. So was..." He stops himself before he says it. Persephone can tell her Blue herself. "You didn't do this alone, that's all I'm saying."

For once in his life, he wishes Ronan would listen to Adam and slow down. Too much shit has happened today and none of them are in the right state of mind. He puts a hand on Ronan's arm, hoping that'll slow him down a least a little.

By the time they get to the Barns, he's feeling a little more adjusted, but not much less agitated. He wanted to go in there with Ronan to talk to Gansey, but he knows it's better if he stays out here with the wonder twins.

All he does is go over to where he tucked the drug away to wake Gansey up, and holds it out to Ronan. "You're gonna need this," he tells him, then leaves them to go make himself a drink. "You could all use a fucking drink, too."

From:

the_smudgy_one

Noah has barely left Gansey's side the entire time he's been here. He's a nervous wreck, wanting to go to Monmouth time and time again and check on everyone to make sure they're okay. He knows they're okay now, but later... no, he can feel that. He can feel the moment things start going down, and he curls himself closer to Gansey, but doesn't dare touch him, because he doesn't want to accidentally steal his power away.

He's up and out of the bed as soon as he hears Ronan's voice, and he's relieved. So intensely relieved, that the lights might be flickering a bit.

"Ronan!" He exlaims, running to his side, tugging at his sleeve. "Are you ok? Is everyone ok? Gansey is ok. I kept checking on him. I didn't leave him at all, promise."

From:

liberty_bodice

Blue stays entirely silent on the ride over. She's getting angrier and angrier, and it's causing everything else to be far too heightened. Everything cuts like knives, and yet again she gets no say in how anything is going to happen, even though it affects her directly. She feels very much like she is done with these boys when this is over and done with. The two in the front seat, at the very least.

They arrive at the Barns, and Blue's out of the car, letting go of Adam. The minute she realizes Kavinsky is going to stand in her way, she glares at him. She can't even absolve the vision of Gansey dead in her head because Ronan wants to wake him up. Her jaws clench so hard her teeth ache. She just wants to break things, and Blue doesn't break things.

"Get me when he's awake." She can't stand to be in the same room as Kavinsky, even less so Ronan. She hates them, in that moment. She storms out of Ronan's house and heads for the nearest barn, where a herd of sleeping cattle were. The skies looked threatening, and matched Blue's mood to a T. She's angry.

The minute she's alone in the barn, though, she loses it. She leans into a wall, near one of the cows that was just there, breathing slowly, warm and comfortable and dry, a dream thing as much as that Gansey was. But she kissed him. He knew her and she loved him and he's gone now, and Blue curls into a ball and sobs alone. She can't break down like this in front of them, not now. They were bastards and not to be trusted again. Out on a limb, and she thought this was all fated and she was meant to have them in her life, but this was unforgivable.

She leans her side into the wall of the barn, tucking in against the cow, and she lets herself feel every ounce of it. Gansey would be awake soon. She needed to not do this in front of him, but her heart shatters into pieces. She folds entirely in on herself and lets it all hit her as hard as it's going to, and it's agony, and she has to do it alone. Then she has to be okay with it. Because the Gansey in there is still alive.

From:

leylined

That last turn has Adam go over the edge once more, and when the Evo slides to a halt, he's out of the car and emptying what's left of his stomach onto the gravel road of the Barns. Any help that may have been offered is preemptively waved away by Adam, letting his head and stomach settle before he makes his own way into the main house. He doesn't even have time to argue with Kavinsky or Ronan, instead letting himself fall gracelessly into one of the many chairs in the room.

He shakes his head at Kavinsky's offer profusely. "I'm. I'm not drinking. Not tonight." Not ever again. "Water."

From:

fucking_kavinsky

Kavinsky can feel the hate radiating off Blue and he kinda wishes he never got better at this feelings thing. What's it good for? This crap? He's glad when she leaves. None of that is helpful right now.

So he's left with Adam, eying him carefully as he pours himself a drink. He wasn't there when it happened and while he wished before that he was, he's kinda glad now that he wasn't. It's selfish of him and he knows it. After he knocks a drink back, then pours another glass and knocks that back too, he feels a little less selfish. If he keeps drinking, maybe he wont feel anything at all.

But he stops himself, because Adam looks a mess and at least Kavinsky can make himself useful to him by grabbing some water, handing it over. "Here. You'll feel better when Dick wakes up."

From:

the_greywaren

"Thank Christ." He mutters when he sees Noah. Though now he worries if everyone will start treating him like shit when they find out he knew about the plan and helped as well. "Physically everyone is okay. It's...done." Ronan didn't want to tell Noah everything that happened. Mostly because he was worried that he might turn on him too.

Taking the dreamt up medication from K he stares at it. Even if he saved his life and Gansey never talked to him again, that would be fine. He could live with that. As long as he never had to feel what he felt earlier today. He could live with anything else, he told himself before he administered the medication to his sleeping friend. After the drugs were in his system, Ronan sat on the edge of the bed close to Gansey waiting for him to open his eyes.

From:

safe_as_life

Gansey feels groggy when he wakes, everything around him seeming stranger than he remembers it. His eyes stay closed for a long moment, his limbs feeling heavy, his brain trying to get everything to move. When he does open them, he has no idea where he is and he wonders just what in the hell happened to him. Maybe somehow he sustained a blow to his head. He's trying to remember.

Then he sees Ronan and he immediately recognizes everything else. They're at the Barns. "Ronan?" He says, his voice weak and scratchy. "What... are we doing here? What happened?"

From:

the_greywaren

Ronan finally takes a real, deep breath and his whole body floods with relief as Gansey opens his eyes. They didn't kill him. He grabbed one of his hands and held it tight. "I'm going to tell you everything. I just need you to listen. Okay?"

It took him a minute to get his thoughts together. He looked expectantly at Noah as if he could guide him and tell him how to start this story. There was nothing anyone could do to make this easier for him. Because he had lied. He had been deceptive and manipulative. Ronan knew all of the sins he had committed against his friends. Knew how horrible and awful it was for them. And he would do it all again.

He laughed nervously and pinched the bridge of his nose. "Fuck. Shit...I'm fucking scared." That was a hell of a confession to make, it was the truth though. Ronan had no idea how Gansey would take the news.

"Okay.." He let out a shaky breath. "We talked about this, about me doing something to get your fucking name off that list. To stop whatever prophecy keeps Blue from kissing you." Which was why he had to make sure she had kissed him. He couldn't save his life just to have her kiss him and undo everything. "Well, I did it. Today."

Shit. He wished he was a lot less sober for this. "Kavinksy and Persephone helped me. And before you get pissed or whatever with them for it, please remember they helped because of me. Because I asked them to. I needed them and they let me use them for this. It's on me. All of it." He paused. Not for long though. If he didn't get this all out right now he wasn't sure if he could. "K and I brought you out here. We drugged you and you've been sleeping here for a few days now. Persephone helped with the magic, something to make everyone forget everything to do with you dying or if they should kiss you or not. I dreamt another you and we took him back to Monmouth. Left you here with Noah." Ronan hoped Gansey would understand that the help from Persephone had come to them because she believed his plan would work. She helped them not because Ronan manipulated her but because she saw the merit in what they were doing.

""There was a hell of a storm today. He was taking Blue out on a date and the Pig broke down. He called Parrish for help to get it started. We drove out....Adam was driving. There was so much fucking water on the road..." Ronan stared down at his hands, nervously picking at the leather bracelets wrapped around his wrists. "The car hit standing water and slid out of control. He got hit. It killed him. The car. We all decided that maybe if we took the body to Cabeswater there would be some way to bring him back. Only once we crossed into the forest the spell was broken and everyone remembered what they were made to forget." For now the clusterfuck of emotions, blame and anger would be left out of this story. "I buried the body and we headed straight here to wake you up. Gansey, I didn't plan that part. How he would die. I never meant for Adam to have anything to do with it. I never would have done that to him on purpose. It was just a fucking accident."

He figured Gansey might have questions so he finally shut up and waited.

From:

safe_as_life

Gansey tries to sit up, because he can tell something is wrong, but everything still feels too heavy, so he just closes his eyes for a moment and nods. "Okay." Ronan's hand is in his and that can't mean good things, but he wants to know what's going on. He can collect himself while Ronan talks.

When Ronan says he's scared, that's when Gansey forces his eyes open again, eyebrows furrowing. It really is a hell of a confession to make, considering it's Ronan. And then he gets it. Ronan went through with the plan. Whatever the plan was, it happened. This gets him sitting up.

Things start filtering back into his head. Kavinsky and Ronan driving out here, all of them getting high, then things start getting very fuzzy. Even he knows pot doesn't knock a person out like that. They drugged him. "A few days?!" He looks around and Noah steps closer, as if he wants to keep him here a little longer and get him to listen to the rest of what Ronan has to say. Kavinsky, Persephone of all people.... he knows they had to be something big.

The more Ronan tells him, the more he feels like this is a dream. This isn't really what happened. It can't be. Dream versions of him, a storm, car crashes. His face is pale, and he suddenly can't feel his hands. He doesn't know what to do with himself. How could all of this have happened while he was laying here in this bed, sleeping?

"Oh my god." It comes out as barely a whisper, his brain still trying to wrap itself around all of this. He can feel his heart thudding in his chest. "How could you do this?" He shakes his head. "Where are they? Where is Adam and Blue?"

Edited Date: 2015-03-22 07:15 am (UTC)

From:

the_greywaren

How could you do this? That's all Ronan needs to hear. It's all he can take hearing. Letting Gansey's hand go he gets up and heads for the door. "I'll send them in."

At the door he pauses, strangling the handle in his sweaty palm. His heart hurts every time it beats. This is the price you have to pay, he reminds himself. "You told me to do whatever it took to save your life. I did."

Opening the door he disappears down the hall. Following the sound of voices he finds K and Adam in the kitchen. "He's awake." That's all he has the heart to say. Ronan only paused long enough to say those two words before continuing on out of the house.

He doesn't look for Blue. Ronan starts walking through the fields of tall grass, toward the rolling hills in the distance, hell bent on getting as far away from everyone and everything as he can.

From:

safe_as_life

He isn't sure how he's supposed to react to any of this. He's angry, he's confused, he's worried... he can't believe it. Then again, in a world full of magic and dreamers, prophesies and ley lines, of course it's possible. Dream up a different version, kill them to save him. But nothing is that simple. How could they have thought it would be?

It takes a moment for Gansey to realize that Ronan is up and heading to the door, and Noah is standing there looking very scared. "Ronan," he says in a tone that urges him to stop, because he needs to think, and he still doesn't understand what happened. He knows he should, but his brain doesn't want to accept it. "Ronan, wait!" He gets up, but then he's crashing down to his knees, and Noah is there next to him in an instant, getting him up and back in bed.

"He just wants to you live. He doesn't want you to die. You could have given him the favor," Noah tells him, but Gansey is too dizzy to think about that right now.

From:

liberty_bodice

She's quieted down with the crying by the time Adam's voice carries into the barn. She's simply sitting there, stroking the backs of her fingers against the big brown beast she was snuggled up to, feeling it shift her legs as it breathed. It was calming, at the very least. Blue remains silent, though. She isn't sure she wants to talk to Adam, even. If someone in her family was involved, the likely culprit was Orla. Second likely was Persephone, because Calla's mouth was far too huge to keep something like that a secret.

If it was Persephone, she doubted Adam was completely without blame. Blue's also having a hard time not lashing out at every single person involved.

But he was retrieving her to see Gansey. That means he's awake, and Blue's on her feet. She balks at the door for a brief moment, looking at Adam, working on some set of words that would give meaning to the moment beyond pulling her back into the group, and then she's running toward the house. She can hear Kavinsky yelling after Ronan somewhere in the distance, and that's some relief.

Blue tears through the house, and stops when she sees Gansey, Noah at his side. Every effort made to keep her shit together fails right them, and it takes her a moment before she's breathing again, and she goes and sits at his other side. She manages a half smile. "You okay?"

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